Well I have been on the South Beach diet for 4 days and I have lost 5.6 pounds. I had to take down the ticker that had my first goal of 15 lbs on it. I didn't save the page I created it on and I couldn't update it. I will try and make another one later.
I am happy with the results of the diet but the food is lacking. Everything I had read talked about the symptoms from the withdraw from caffeine, sugar, and carbs but I didn't expect it to be this bad. The books say you won't be hungry. I am though. because I don't feel full until I get what I want, and what I want right now is McDonald's and some Sonic ice cream. The 1st two weeks are the hardest because you are detoxing. That is supposed to make the cravings for the bad foods go away. There just aren't many options for food. I went to Barnes and noble last night and got a new cook book. Hopefully that will help me find some stuff. Once I am on phase 2, which is after the initial 2 week, there are more options and..... I can have coffee again. Thank you Jesus. Last night we ate baked chicken, spinach, and mashed potatoes that actually had no potatoes but instead cauliflower. They were good while they were hot. Once they started to cool down they tasted like cauliflower, which I don't like. For lunch today I will have a salad from the salad bar here at work. My snacks are 1 cheese stick, 3 celery stalks w/ 1 laughing cow cheese wedge, and 1 sugar free jello. Oh, and lots of gum. Since I have starting dieting (for real) my nicotine cravings have come back. But I will give into chocolate cake before I give into that.
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Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Friday, April 10, 2009
I feel like I am dreaming
I have this unreal feeling today. Like I am in a dream. It is very odd.
Yesterday morning I had a message from my Aunt that her husband had suffered a major heart attack that night and was in the hospital. She called from an anonymous number, and didn't leave a call back. I called her cell phone, but you know how older people are, they don't have those things glued to themselves like my generation does. I left her a message, and waited for some news. This morning I had yet to hear anything so I called again-no answer, left a message. Then I called my mom to see if she knew how to get a hold of her-no answer, left a message. So I tried my cousin, her youngest son-no answer, left a message. I have heard from her since, she called about the time I arrived to work so I could not answer. She did leave a message. They are about 95% sure they will remove him from life support today. I thought I had done such a good job of removing myself from family/death that it would not affect me. But he is a good man, and she needs him. He is young. Only in his 50's. I am afraid she will give up her fight for life if she loses him. So, I am sad today. This is bringing back so many memories that I do not want to think about. I am 8 years old again. People I don't know in my house, like there is some sort of party. My mom is on the phone crying. I see my brother leave, someone is taking him for ice cream. I ask someone what is going on and they tell me my dad is gone. Well, I knew that, he was in St Louis having some sort of surgery. Everyone is crying and hugging and I am so confused. I hear the words "dead" and "never coming back" and I think I get it. I run out of the house. No one notices. I go across the street, I swing on my neighbors swing set, their mom comes out to talk to me about how she lost her mom when she was young too. I don't cry, because if I don't cry it won't be real. The only person who would have noticed, even cared that I was gone, is no longer here to care.
Yesterday morning I had a message from my Aunt that her husband had suffered a major heart attack that night and was in the hospital. She called from an anonymous number, and didn't leave a call back. I called her cell phone, but you know how older people are, they don't have those things glued to themselves like my generation does. I left her a message, and waited for some news. This morning I had yet to hear anything so I called again-no answer, left a message. Then I called my mom to see if she knew how to get a hold of her-no answer, left a message. So I tried my cousin, her youngest son-no answer, left a message. I have heard from her since, she called about the time I arrived to work so I could not answer. She did leave a message. They are about 95% sure they will remove him from life support today. I thought I had done such a good job of removing myself from family/death that it would not affect me. But he is a good man, and she needs him. He is young. Only in his 50's. I am afraid she will give up her fight for life if she loses him. So, I am sad today. This is bringing back so many memories that I do not want to think about. I am 8 years old again. People I don't know in my house, like there is some sort of party. My mom is on the phone crying. I see my brother leave, someone is taking him for ice cream. I ask someone what is going on and they tell me my dad is gone. Well, I knew that, he was in St Louis having some sort of surgery. Everyone is crying and hugging and I am so confused. I hear the words "dead" and "never coming back" and I think I get it. I run out of the house. No one notices. I go across the street, I swing on my neighbors swing set, their mom comes out to talk to me about how she lost her mom when she was young too. I don't cry, because if I don't cry it won't be real. The only person who would have noticed, even cared that I was gone, is no longer here to care.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Time for step 2
There are certain things you should do when trying to conceive. Take vitamins, don't smoke, be healthy (i.e. lose weight, eat right, exercise). So, I stopped smoking and yesterday I bought a multi-vitamin. Tomorrow, I will start a diet. I don't know my weight for sure. I know it is somewhere between 180 and 190. I am only 4'11" so thats a bit big. Definately the most I have ever weighed. I am not telling anyone. Except for Chris, since he will be around all the time and will know. Plus, he wants to lose weight too.
So that's the next step for me. Today I am at work, not wanting to be of course. I am going to work on a grocery list, even though I can't go grocery shopping until next week.
So that's the next step for me. Today I am at work, not wanting to be of course. I am going to work on a grocery list, even though I can't go grocery shopping until next week.
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